Thursday, February 18, 2010

Too busy too busy

Long weekend last week.  That meant no school on Friday so the boy and I went to stay with some of our favorite friends on Thursday night then spent most of Friday meandering and shopping.  It was one of the first times that he wanted (wanted, not was forced) to go to the bookstore!
The break was wonderful.  Free time was wonderful! Something I've noticed about me, and have decided to take steps to change is how FULL my life gets of 'busy work'.  I have been taking on every little project that comes my way, working as much as possible, getting involved in many many causes and never saying no when someone needs something.  All this 'helping' isn't all bad of course and much of it is enjoyable and I love feeling like I'm helping and making a difference.  But I'm left a little drained at times.  The problem is the unhealthy balance and the reasons behind all the busy in my life.  That is the part I'm wanting to change, because the ugly truth is that I've been in a place in my life where I have wanted to stay busy busy busy to distract myself from what I was actually thinking and feeling.  I guess I thought that if I stayed busy enough I wouldn't have to think about what my life was, what its missing and what all of that means.  Distractions.  hmmm.  So my goal is to take a serious look at all the 'busy stuff' in my life and decide what is actually important to me to be involved in and what is necessary and what I can cut out.  Down time would be pretty amazing to have more of!  And time to focus on things I'm seeing as very important, and time to devote to change, all sounds nice to me.
I can make space for things that really matter to me.

1 comment:

Yvonne said...

Major insight, that! It takes a brave heart to confront Ugly Truths!